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| my mom and my oldest daughter in 2008 |
It has been 3 years and a day since my mom passed away. It has been 6 years since she was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer and everything changed. I would love to give you my "live a healthy life" speech, but I'll save it for another day. Today I have been thinking about 3 years.
It seems like such a short period of time, but somehow it feels like it has been ions since I last say my mom. I have been a motherless daughter for 3 years. At times I have felt like I'm floating aimlessly, a ship without a rudder. It's hard to go through life without that guiding voice to help you suss out any problem that might arise.
3 years...I've been thinking about all that has actually happened in those 3 short years.
my brother was married
my sister had a baby
my bro and sister both got dogs
my brother bought his first home
I started this blog
my daughters have grown
my daughters can both read and write
my uncle passed away
my cousin had a baby
3 Christmases
3 birthdays each
3 Mother's Days
not to mention the innumerable little moments that have occurred
The list is truly endless. 3 years is a very long time and I know that I have many more to live without her. So, today I sit at the beach, I feel the breeze, listen to the birds, soak up the sunshine and shed a few tears. I am grateful for the 3 wonderful years and all the joy and love that has been experienced. I only wish that she had been here to share them with all of us.
